Lain inside

Phines and Ferb reminded my of Mythbusters…

Guess who is watching that now. [link]

Actually i wanted to take a train to my other room…

Now im stuck watching phineas and ferb on youtube.

Vaccination is just an equivalent exchange

We are exchanging the life and health of a few people (those who die or get disabled from vaccination damages) against the health of the whole population.






The bomb is dropped

The kittens sort of soften the blow.

this is the shittiest post ever. please unfollow me if you agree with this post also shame on OP for using cute kittens for this garbage post

not sure what it is exactly that makes this post so shitty? Because it’s promoting actual equality? instead of saying that you can call everyone else shit because you are part of an oppressed party you can say you are equal to them doesn’t exactly sound like a shitty idea to me.

BOOM. So many people on this website need to read this twice, let it sink in and then read it again.

(Source: fascistballerinamoved, via 1989nihil)

While talking to boxwearingcrow i suddenly remembered of that Nero/Lain thing. Its basically how i became what i am now.

I was an devoted PHP coder for quite a while. Approximately in summer 2012 i tried to code an artifical intelligence, i made concepts, threw them over and over again. I wanted to create an way to accurately depict reality in an database. Something that still allowed the questioning of everything. Something that could find the answer to every question or say why the question is faulted in the first place. But - with every try - there were cases where my concept just failed. I could only approximate reality, not depict it exactly. And then the missing motivation. What would an AI want? What commands were to follow and which ones to question? And then language. It was unusable for that reason because it was relative. Words just have their meaning because we observed them being used that way. Its far from being absolute. So i tried the next step… give up on the idea that something must be exactly defined to be true. give up on abstractions. Just use what you can get as input and make what suits your needs best.

In the end, i had a quite powerful concept. But it was far above from what computers could implement.

I think you can guess what comes next. I gave up on the idea to put that thing into a computer. As side effect i changed a lot over these months. I changed. I stopped trying to be something. I fell into some kind of depression (I often refer to it as ‘void’). But then i remembered… i have something an AI would never has. Intrinsic motivation. I’ve actually spend most of my childhood learning to supress my intrinsic motivation - i should only work for better grades or money. I reversed that despite of what my family said. I stopped doing stuff because i was told that it was normal. I tried to learn what i actually want. Right now i have an pack of orange juice laying next to me - it gives me some kind of pleasure to drink some. Same with eating. And doing complicated stuff like coding.

And then programming. Im intrinsically motivated to do something i can earn money with. I think thats one of my most useful traits.

Sometimes im envy people who have a strong belief. Sometimes hate them for stupidly following ideas that i perceive as random and/or arbitrary.


your icon shows who you are inside

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The “Not all …” phrase is just the result of overgeneralisation